If you are new to Delicious Ambiguity I would love for you to subscribe to free updates! You can subscribe via RSS FEED or by EMAIL. I would also love to connect with you on FACEBOOK. Thanks for visiting!

Monday, February 1, 2010

True Love

In honor of Valentines day Folk Heart Press and Key Business Partners are having a writing contest. The challenge is to be one of the first five people to submit a personal essay about a true love in your life (or the life of a friend or family member). I thought it would be a great idea to get the creative juices flowing and that it would be good for the soul to write about this. So without further adu, here is my submission:

When I was pregnant I believed that the moment I would see my child for the first time would be the most defining moment of my life. After 9 hours of a drug-free labour and delivery, I gave birth to a ten pound nine ounce baby boy and an eight pound umbilical cord. When I looked at my son for the first time there was a major disconnect. My new baby was huge, looked nothing like me and was covered in vernix (because they aren’t born all fresh and clean like in the movies).  That first day felt surreal.

When my boyfriend, my mother and the nurses left me alone for the first night I panicked. I acted like I was fine but inside I was screaming, “Oh my god! Please don’t leave me alone with this little person! I don’t know what to do!”

That first night my son wouldn’t settle. He screamed constantly and nothing I did seemed to comfort him. Eventually he fell asleep in my arms and I spent most of the night sitting in that hospital bed, staring at him with the most intense feeling of true love overcoming me.

I was exhausted and I should have been resting but I held him and I watched him sleep. I knew in that instant what being a mother and loving someone without boundaries felt like. Tears rolled down my cheeks as every emotion ran through me.

Life wasn’t just about me anymore. I was blessed with the most amazing gift and I knew that I would hold him in my heart, protect him and provide for him selflessly for the rest of my life. It was in that moment I knew I had found my true love.

I kissed him on the forehead and held him tight. “Mommy loves you, Kai”, I whispered. And then together we slept.

Thanks for reading. Please make sure to check the Folk Heart Press website from February 7th-13th to vote for me if you liked what you read and help support my blog.  I wish you all get the chance in your lifetime to find true love. Should you be lucky enough to find it I would be honoured to hear your story. 


  1. Jenn,
    This is an absolutely beautiful essay! Such a precious family story... and a beautiful photograph.
    I am delighted to have this essay as one of Folkheart Press' finalists!
    Best, Karen

  2. You wrote a very intense and touching story. Babies are truly a miracle gift. You are a lucky lady. Congrats Jenn!


Thank you for taking the time to visit my blog. I love reading comments and appreciate each and every one. Have a wonderful day & thanks for stopping by!

Related Posts with Thumbnails